What If Not

My time there lasted 6.5 years, much longer then I ever anticipated, but today it came to an official end. I felt anxious this morning, having had another night of disturbing dreams, but after Amanda joined me on the food pantry run, Gabe's drop-off and placing PTA flyers at the school, I felt light-hearted. Liberated. I've enjoyed a clear joy that's continued through Hazel's first gymnastics class and taking her to karate to now. Amanda's noticed the change in me. "You used to be grumpy, all the time," she said. "You were in a fog."

Here's to an end to bad dreams and to waking up.